Interview Series - Roxanne Miller

The best is I make people happy in a very private way. That is the best thing. And then there are other fun things, you know, like because I'm a very sexual person, For me it's an outlet. Like, I aim to have plenty of orgasms daily, so that's another plus.

I am a creative person. I am an artist by trade and I am also a photographer. So I turned one of my hobbies into a profession. And other than that, because I have ADHD, I have a hobby, a new hobby every single week. So this week might be I I might be meeting. Next week I might be, I don't know, spearfishing.

Yep, I did a 1,000 piece puzzle and it was with Neuschwanstein Castle and it was bright blue sky and very dark forest. It almost killed me but I nailed it. It took me only three weeks.

I do like the fresh fragrances like lemon. You know, everything citrusy. They have to have musk. I do like the pepper scent, for instance.

I do like a lot, Dolce & Gabbana Light Blue or the Nina Ricci, the red little Apple, or something like that.

I like them fresh and I like them close to a natural kind of scent.
I do not like the sweet perfumes. They're too strong for me and they get me so dizzy.

I do. I like what Dita Von Tess did a lot like. It's such a beautiful lace. It's such a beautiful design and it's beautiful for curves and embraces the curves and stuff like that. I also do like what Kirby Kate does for the busty girls with the bras, they embrace the breasts and stuff like that. But other than that, I am a mixing between because you know, in my trade I got to have a lot of it, right? I prefer to be a mix between convenience and beauty.

The thing is that for instance, if on my pages I post every single day pictures, if I go for a set that's close to 800 a 1000, I am willing to manifest $80,000 a month to be able to afford all that kind of lingerie, right? But on the other hand I need to be a little bit with heads on, with the head on the shoulders because I need to rotate a lot of these kind of lingerie. So it makes sense to use resources in a smart way, right?

Yeah. And now I do know models because I worked with as a trainer as well, and I photographed plenty of models as well. I did get into arguments with models for being at the third or fourth photo shoot with the same pair of shoes, with the same pair of panties, or with broken lingerie because it's that old. And she's like, yeah, but it's it’s... I don't know what brand. And I'm like, yeah, but it looks like my grandma used to wear it when she got married, you know? And yeah, well, you can go wrong with cheap lingerie, but you can go very wrong with expensive one.

Knowing what I know now, I would put all the information that I know now into my head back when I was 19 and I would do the work smarter, not harder. But on the other hand, what I know now is through all the hassle that I've been going through and I don't know, maybe I would cut back on the alcohol I use drink in my early 20s. But other than that, I've learned a lot in the process and I learned to appreciate the people that come and see me.

And there is one thing that most, most of the models I worked with didn't understand. Its that, what we earn as content creators, as porn stars, as cam girls is out of the extra money from the people. So if they choose to spend that extra money they have on us, it's a freaking blessing.

I have a very big fat, lazy tomcat. His name is Boo and back in the day, people, there are still people who ask. There were two - Abby and Boo. Abby unfortunately passed. The people come and say, oh, do you still have the cats? Do you remember when they were little and jumping all over the sofa in the background? And doing all of the mischievous things they could do? Yeah, my tomcat just turned last month, 11 years. I have had him since he was like, in my palm. And he's lovey dovey, fat ginger cat.

When I started, I started in a studio first of all because I didn't know anything about the trade and I needed training in it. And back in 2010, we used to work on 10 sites at a time. Like the browser couldn't stay on the bar and they would collapse all day long and you wouldn't know where the sounds come from. And it was crazy.

But back then people were more patient, like they would stay in private for a minute until you figure out where they were. Back then, because I finished a French high school, my English sucked big time. And I had such a big struggle in finding my words. You can, I mean you can speak French, but the French speakers on cam are few.

Back then Chaturbate didn't exist. The only free site was MyFreeCams. And yeah, somehow, MyFreeCams was for the models who were able to relate to the camera and stuff because you had to create your own community there. And it was fun. It was fun. But now if you start as a model with five sites, you’d die.

So yeah, But what I would recommend now for a model who wants to start is to look a little bit at herself and see first of all if she is an introvert or an extrovert. Because on it's really, really hard as an introvert to work on sites like Chaturbate or Stripchat. Because on the premium cam sites, you have to be just a one-man dance show and have to entertain plenty of people. While on the other ones. If you seek connection, if you seek one-on-one time, it's easier and it's sometimes it's not as rewarding as a free site. But on the other side, you can make a beautiful show and have nobody tip you. For a long time, I pushed myself to work on Chaturbate and make it work. And I realized that in order for me to love my work, I have to make it easy. And I was talking, even in therapy with my therapist, and she was like, Why does it have to be hard for you? Do you know that life can be easy? Why do you seek hardship? And then I looked at me and my patterns and my family and I realized that basically just because grandma said life has to be hard doesn’t mean everybody else isn’t right. And I started to simplify. And last year I I've read a book which changed a little bit my way of thinking.

And I don't necessarily have to work 70 hours a week, I can work 30, but really work them in the sense of doing what I know best and, you know, promote it and do all the behind the scenes work related to it. And I was thinking at some point, ‘cause there are periods of times online when it's not quite worth it to be online, such as end of February. It's really difficult because people have taxes, and then the beginning or end of July, because people are going to holidays and they are saving money and stuff like that, right? So why not use that time instead of staying online for six hours and do crap?

Why not use that time to create content, to create a back story, to create all these kind of stuff that can be used in the time when I have to be busy being online, right? And I can't afford that luxury because I am an independent model. But if you work in a studio, you have to keep your schedule, You have to do all the things that they want you to do.

I don't know how many models do their research. I had my own studio at some point trying to make a difference. The models that came to interview, one of them told me she's feeling nauseated in in the hair. And I was like, if I hit rock bottom, I'm freaking good. I'm good. I'm healthy, I'm, I'm sane, right?

Plenty of models who go to studios do not have the means to start online at home, a computer, a room. Or there are studios now in Romania that work like like factories, and they do work a lot on the models, like photo shoots, looks, surgery, everything, right? But they also do ask a lot from the girls, like you have to be online 12 hours a day and stuff like that.

If you as a model are driven enough to work with this kind of model, with this kind of studio, go for it. Like go for it and you're going to make a lot of money. But if you want freedom and money, then you'll have to research a lot, learn a lot. And you have to also understand that it's not easy to see so many naked men. It's not easy to fulfill their fantasies. Some of them may contradict your beliefs. And most, most of the models that I have met are actually pretty Christian people, right. I mean they they do make a very they have a different personal life. They go to church. And the job is a job, yes.

No, not yet. I have heard of it at Summit, I have seen models do it. I am interested in the progress. But also again, I also have to keep my head on straight. Because we are tempted to go 4K, but how many people can see 4K? How many have their Internet connection that good or their device is that good? I have one member and when he tells me he opens his laptop after half hours, he said he says my laptop is open and I'm like did you like, you know? So somehow I think for me it's better to wait a little bit before jumping in.

I had at some point in Amazon a wish list. But it was with the customs office it was so difficult. And then I had it on dot call.uk and then the Brexit happened and then with that day I I don't know German so right, but I did get some cool gifts. One particular gift was from a guy that was a music producer in Vancouver and he was going through divorce and he sent me his vintage film cameras saying that with me they will be safe. Unfortunately, he passed away, but that's the memory that I have with him and cherish. He was such a good man and such a good father and I really loved him. Like we became friends.

Well, we had been friends for two years before he passed, he was a guest in my room for six months before he built up the courage to talk to me. Because he, I have this thing sometimes I appear to be like arrogant or something like that to people. Because sometimes I'm harsh, but I'm just passionate and loud, you know. And he spoke about his wife and I've never heard a man speak up about his wife like that. He always when he mentioned her, she was his bride. Every single time when he was speaking about her, he would say my bride did this and my bride did that. And just after I met him, he vanished for two months. And then when he came back I was like, dude, you don't come into my life and vanish like that. Not, not without at least the courtesy of a goodbye, right?

And then he told me that he got a fistful of pills because he, his wife came back from a business trip and told him in the first day she was like, where do you want to spend your birthday? Hawaii or Cuba, 'cause they were from Canada, right? And the next day she's like, I want to divorce. So he was like all messed up. And that's when we became really good friends, 'cause I was like, are you freaking kidding me? Have you seen yourself? You're freaking talented. You're freaking all that.

And after that, he got a new fiance and the day that he passed, she texted me, because she knew about me. She texted me and said I’m thankful for the impact that you had in his life.

We do not want to think about our partners watching porn. We do not, actually. We do not want to think that our partners get off otherwise than with us. This is a general thing. It's valid for porn stars and cam girls and other stuff like that too. The reality of the fact is everybody gets off to porn one way or another. Some pay, some lurk, some by one way or another. We do get off looking at other people having intimate moments, being solo, gangbang or a beautiful sex scene.
I'm guessing and assuming that porn got even better these days. Because people have looked at real life and introduced real life themes into the stories. Like there is one specific video with Angela White.
I love Angela White. She's such a great actress and I'm loving her passion for sex.

And she, she was in a sweater and panties and her boyfriend came home drunk and a lady texts him and she starts screaming at him.

Who the fuck is she? Who the fuck is she? And she gets so angry to the point chin is shaking like real shaking the chin. And I was like, damn, she's freaking great! As I started acting and I can see these kind of things and I'm like, Oh yeah, like all my senses, senses was were like image was good, sound was good. She was acting brilliant. I'm like “braingasm” all the way, right? So, and then they fuck. It’s angry sex and it's beautiful.

But somehow I I feel like the women who, this is most of the partners that don't know the other partner is jerking off, right? The women also tend to, and it's it's. Two weeks ago, one model asked me if I could have sex every single day, and I was like, why not? Like, what the fuck? Make it five times a day? Whoa, what kind of a question is that?

Somehow, even in this industry you are the weirdo If you freaking like sex. If you're you know, and it's like you're crazy for dick, you're a nymphomaniac or something like that, and it's like it's a bad thing. And I'm like what the fuck you know? If you're not open to being intimate. You also have to look at yourself, because that means that you have plenty of issues with intimacy with yourself.

It's not that wild, but it it is wild in the sense it was a forest, but I mean there were plenty of forests. I was young and wild before I discovered that sex in bed is very comfortable. But yeah, outdoors and in cars and stuff like that.

I kind of knew what what I was getting into because I had a cousin who was a male model before I started. And I also looked a little bit at the sites too, to see what the girls were doing and stuff like that. You know ADHD it means when you are interested in something you freaking research. But the good thing was that I decided when I started that I will not force myself to stay for the money. And the first. I don't recall exactly if it was the first one, but I do recall it was on the 1st or the 2nd day when I was told that I have to undress in a minute after the person got in private, even though they wouldn't, say, get naked. And this guy said, you know what, dress back, because I want to talk to you. I was like, hey, wait, I'm interesting.

But also because I have been chubby as a teenager and even in in my younger childhood I was bullied a lot on that. Cause in Romania we have these, you’ve gotta be skinny to have a boyfriend, you gotta be skinny to get married, you gotta be skinny to not be cheated on and all this kind of crap, right? And at first guys were cumming in like 2-3 minutes. And I'd be like, oh, ego boost, because you know I'm fucking hot, right? And it actually helped a lot. Because I worked a lot on my self-image like that. When 100,000 people tell you you're beautiful, eventually start to believe it.

I also discovered that depending on the price range in which you put yourself, you get that.
I've seen it working with models who had different prices, right? Well, the cheapest you go, the lower the quality of the people that come and see you. And when you go higher, of course you will not have the same traffic as the cheap people. But you will have quality people. You will have people with whom you have what to talk. You will be able to connect with people on different kind of level. And not all the people here come to just jerk off. Plenty of them are just lonely and they want to communicate with somebody. And if it's somebody beautiful, even better.

Well, the main thing that I do in private life that I don't do at work is safe. I made a few videos that I call fake core 'cause you can see there is a dude there, but it's a dildo. Yeah, on the private life, what I wouldn't do from work. Perhaps I wouldn't say good boy when you're not.

Other than that, as I said before, I'm pretty sexual. I'm trying things. I'm trying toys. I'm trying role plays and fantasies and stuff like that.

I mean it's it's funnier when I get asked what's your fantasy? I'm out of fantasies. Like I've lived so many through other people, like tell me your fantasy and let's make it mine.

It's going to be so normal! Obviously, what else can it be, besides doggy!? Hey, missionary is fun too. And it’s underrated, missionary.
I actually have two jokes related to this. So we have these characters in our jokes, John and Mary. And John and Mary are from the countryside, right? Rednecks through and through. So John goes to Mary and she and he says Mary, I want us to fuck. Like in porn movies and this is in the age the dial up (internet). And they start fucking and in doggy position. And at some point John stops and waits and waits and then fucks her again. And eventually he stops and waits and waits and starts again.
And then Mary, very annoyed. She's like, what the fuck are you doing? And he's like... buffering.
And the second one, John and Mary have been married for 50 years now and Mary wants to give John a very nice present. So, she sends him to the capital to see the nightlife and to seek out a prostitute. John does what he was told and comes to the capital, goes to a prostitute and he says I want you to impress me. It's my 50th anniversary. My wife sent me here, so go ahead, impress me.

So she starts with normal sex, oral sex, and when she uses everything she had in her bag of tricks, she's like, dude, how do I impress you? And he was like, well, everything that you did, my Mary does too. I thought that you were going to speak dirty to me or something. So, somehow we all have things that we want. We do not really speak about it. And even when we have what we want at home, we are still going to look for something else elsewhere because it's in our nature. And somehow, you know, 1000 years ago there was no such thing as monogamy perhaps, or 2000 or 5000 years ago, right? People were fucking like crazy. That's why we are so many right now. So we we now being in monogamous relationships. Most of us, we have to find polyamorous, polygamous kind of thing to keep us grounded elsewhere.

James Hetfield.

Oh gosh, that dude is so fuckable. He starts to give to give me. Like I I used to say, I have daddy issues. I'm starting to feel I'm also having granddaddy issues. It's not like he's a grandfather, but he's pretty mature.

Somehow it depends on the mood that I had and how that person picked it up. I did have some adventures that were fun, but eventually they they ended because while sex was fun, the person was pretty toxic. So I am pretty much and I was in a pretty toxic period of myself too, so I allowed that to happen. But on the other hand, at some point I woke up and I said OK, the people cannot call me when they are horny. I mean if they call me when they're horny they gotta fucking pay me, right?

So these kind of use each other, feed off each other and stuff like that somehow got bothersome and I started seeking real connection and real feeling. And if I realized that if it, if it was with, you know, that big bunch of butterflies, that was actually anxiety.

Yeah, I was shooting for a company, and I was pregnant and they had me stay in a beauty shop chair. Squeezing into a tiny little chair with a weird position, lift my leg up with a big belly. And man, a big fart came out. Like, you know, I was like, oh fuck you know, all embarrassed and stuff. And they were like, it's normal. I mean, you're pregnant and stuff. You didn't do it on purpose. And I was like, yeah, but I still feel like I stand out of place.

Another time I wanted to show my gang, because I started working in in a nightclub as a dancer, and I wanted to show them what I've learned there as movements and stuff like that. And I bent over, being topless the weight of my breasts made me fall, 'cause I was on heels, on high heels, and I fell on my face.

I think so. I consider naughty to be a good thing in naughtiest things. We can add the taboos, right? The family stuff. The dirtiest thing, people have asked me to put cat food on my pussy so the cat would feed and stuff like that. And I promised them that if I ever see them, I'm going to strangle them. But, and you know, things like pushing the limits, like, I'm not doing anal because I'm not feeling comfortable doing it. And they would be like, but I'm gonna give you that and that and that. Now I would be like, dude, you're gonna waste your money. Like if you want to give me 1000, give it to me, but I'm not gonna do it. At least one guy was like, can you at least fake a finger in your ass? And I'd be like, dude, you know - like you asked me to fake it!

With me, its most likely like with music or with my TV shows. I get little obsessions. Like I'm gonna listen to the same song until I'm gonna puke or watch Seinfeld five times in a row.

Right now I am pretty much obsessed with “giantess”. I'm freaking loving it. I'm not very tall. I'm 161 cm or 5 feet, 3 inches tall right. So and always, you know all the groups that I've been involved, pretty much always, I've been the youngest, the smallest, the one that was protected by everybody and stuff like that, right? But in these, with this fetish, I get to explore the dominant side of mine.

I am the one that rules everything. I am the one that decides what's going to happen. And I'm having so much fun. I have this boy toy here or this Shaggy right here, right? And I'm having so much fun. And I get to play with toys like fuck me, it’s so much fun!

I do love soft dildos, they feel good. If they are harder, because I use them often, they are going to hurt.

I do like toys like magic wands. You know, vibrators for the clit. Vibrations inside of me don't do much, so I prefer. I prefer the monocleid. Yeah, pretty much those and the whip here and there.

I am more of I all over the place. Let's say it's switch. It depends a lot on the person I interact with. If you are not going to match my power, you are obviously going to be my beta. But there are people who managed to overpower me, but I fight it. So I'm going to be such an annoying brat and I'm enjoying it so much, 'cause I'm like, I'm going to poke it until you're gonna like choke me and fuck me, you know, it depends.

I am getting off by people's pleasures. So if they like to be humiliated and I see how fucking hard I make them, calling them all the names they want me to call them, or telling them that they have the tiniest cock in the world and stuff like that, Or listening to somebody telling me how to masturbate and stuff like that, it's going to get me off so good. Like if you're getting off, I'm getting off.

Well, I do like it to be between 15 to 18 centimeters and I'm guessing that's like 5-7 inches.
Not sure. No 6 to 8 inches, right? It's the size where you can hit hard without hurting me. You can go slow and I will still feel you. So I'm getting super wet. So if you're smaller than that at some point, I'm not going to feel you. If you're longer than that, because of my cervix being pretty low, you're going to freaking hurt me. And it's not going to be pleasurable.

I have seen. I'm pretty bad with names, but I have seen plenty of porn done by Vixen or by Black.com or there are a few other companies in the same kind of area, like cinematic images, beautiful sound and stuff like that. And I've seen plenty of beautiful great actresses and I would love to work with them. But one of them, and it's my favorite, would be Angela White.

But on on the other hand, I would love to work with all other women and models who are independent or who are under contract. I don't care, it’s about who loves the job. Those who love being in front of the camera, who love being sexual, who love getting off, who know what to do. Like 'cause I worked, for instance, with with a woman in London. It was for a dude's private gallery. He ordered 6 videos and he paid for my trip and everything. And I was crazy enough to go like he was not with the company and stuff like that, right? And I worked with this lady. She called herself Tigger. She had a Tigger from Winnie the Pooh tattooed on her ass cheek. And she was 40, 45 at the time. And I was 22, 23. And she was real bi. And oh, my God, the woman was shivering under my touch. And I had so much fun. Like I was going and exploring and, you know, let me see if I really hear how she's going to react lately because she allowed me to do it. And she allowed me to play with her, and she played with me so beautiful.

And I also did with Danielle for mature NL some some sort of these kind of, let's call it a little bit more than softcore kind of content, you know, like pussy licking and stuff like that.

And she was so into it. And with Danielle, because she was also 40, something back then when she took her bra off and I looked at her breasts, I was like, Oh my God, they are so beautiful. Like they were hanging so beautiful and, you know, firm and stuff like that. And I was like, what did you eat all your life? And she was like, they're implants. And I was like, get out of here! They can't be implants, they look so freaking beautiful and natural, right? So basically, I would work with everybody, with every single model who would give me this kind of vibe. Like, I do love what I'm doing.

I started. It's been a while now that I started to look into bringing more value to my content and that also means have a little less dead time in in the videos. It of course is going to be, you know, the conversation because I'm doing a lot of role plays, so it's going to be that. But I I'm working more on that.

I'm more into my characters. I am learning new skills in editing and stuff like that. That's one thing. And I I do want my content to become better and more relevant because I love it, I love creating it and I want to be proud of it. And I wanted to bring a lot of joy in in people's lives because I was, I was talking with my therapist too and I was like, you know what I really like to bring happiness into people's life. And if by playing these roles and basically assuming these roles and be part and put my soul into them and you know, get myself there. Because for a while I tried to protect myself from the roles and I've been a little bit detached and I was not really happy with the end result.
Now I'm like, fuck it, I'm going to go full power, right?
This is one thing. This is one of the plans.
The other thing is I I have, I actually woke up at 3:00 AM because my brain was like in superpower, like I have ideas. You have to write them down. Now I'm working on on three books that they they will be online books. Maybe a publisher will read them and publish them, but I will start as an online author with no publisher.

They're going to be about what we actually love in this life. It's sex, money and ourselves and a few exercises that I think are interesting. Games I played with them with people online to see how it's like to realize that, for instance, it's not a bad thing to love money because when you have money you can do shit. You can do fucking awesome things, including helping others. If you're broke as fuck, you cannot help anybody, not even yourself, right? And it took me only 32 years to realize that it's actually good to love money. And yeah, it's it's very good to love sex and it's very good to love yourself. And I've been asked by by a guy who's a bit more Christian than I am. And he was like, yeah, but you know what? If you love yourself, that's selfish and it's going to get to make you rot in hell.
And I'm like, well, isn't one of the rules to love God? And if God is in all of us, aren't you hating his God's creation if you don't love yourself, right. So I have plenty of arguments like that because I've read the Bible three times.

I started working on audio stories, stories that, you know, people. There are people who are very, very imaginative, but they do want to hear it. So it's going to be stories on fetishes and especially fetishes like giantess or breast expansion because they are harder to produce as a visual content as well.
So I can actually make them sound better than make them look right.

I am the kind of person who seizes the moment. I do have moments in which I don't feel like doing anything, and that's basically when my body says you're tired. Shut the fuck down. Sleep, rest. Do something that doesn't require a lot of energy. Eat something good, don't go with the carbs. I actually have a starch intolerance, so basically I don't have to go with the starch, with the carbs, because my body doesn't like it. I do, but my body doesn't.

First of all, I want to thank them all. I am here because they are here. I do love, cherish, and respect every single person, even if I don't know them in person. Like maybe we didn't interact. Maybe you just like the post of mine or you've seen the video of mine. But I am who I am because every single one of them is here. And thank you, thank you so much.

I want them to stay healthy and to stay out of trouble and to get better and better every single day, no matter what. That means for each and everyone. Because we can be as rich as our mind conceives it.

And some of us will be rich in in the money and some of us will be reaching the experience and some of us will be reaching the knowledge. It depends on everybody what what's the definition of being rich. But I want them all to be rich in what they want to be.
Thank you.